我恋爱了！！！

我还是第一次有这样的想法，我会想着一个人，想得什么事都没办法一百巴仙做好，那我只能够承认，我真的恋爱了！！！
原来，自己想的，跟自己做的，真的会不一样！！！
我以为，退回朋友与朋友界限会比较自由，但我承认，我改观了。
在此声明，我恋爱了！！！

我受够了！！！

拜托你，放了我好吗？
我们毕竟是两个世界的人，
硬生生地把我的世界搬去你的世界只会让我更不想见到你！！！
我也曾经对你说过的吧，
我没办法只属于你！！！
我已经确确实实的告诉过你，
我们不能再见面了，为什么你就不肯听？？？！！！
我也说过的吧，爱一个人对我来说，真的太难了!!!
我真的开始觉得，我们已开始便走错了！！！
我们真的不应该在一起！！！
我连最后一丝丝说服自己再次爱上你了！！！
真的。。。真的。。。
我们真的到了瓶颈，到了这一步，我们从此以后，不要再见面了，好吗？？？
不只不再见面，连电话也别再打给我了，好吗？？？
在这世上，真的不是每一件事情都有因有果。
在这世上，真的不是每一个问题都有答案。
有时候，放开手，我们会更快乐！！！
若你在强迫我，我们会连朋友也做不成！！！
就此打住，好吗？？？
面对爱情，我真的心有余而力不足。。。
我讨厌面对你了！！！
我讨厌爱伪装的自己了!!!
我讨厌每天看到你了！！！
会发神经的人不是你！！！
会发神经的人是我！！！
不要再给我装可怜！！！
我不想要你再问要如何帮我！！！
我不要你帮！！！
再说，三年前，还我去找心理医生的人，不要说你不记得，那个人就是你！！！
三年前，你说你帮了我？？？！！！
我才不信！！！
我没说过要你陪我！！！
你不是很固执，而是死脑经！！！
不要再叫我老婆！！！
我超讨厌你!!!

蝴蝶

蝴蝶，你曾说过它很任性。
出生时，那么娇小，让人没办法下手杀了他。
成长时，那么贪婪，把所有东西往自己赛，不管是喜是忧。
在成蛹时，把自己孤立起来，不让任何人靠近。
成蝴蝶了，把美丽露出来。
死亡时，不留痕迹地消逝。

你曾说我是蝴蝶，那么地任性，那么地娇小，那么地贪婪，那么地不让人靠近，那么地，在你生命中，不留一丝丝的痕迹。

三年了，我当了你的蝴蝶三年了。
三年前，你总是在我身边，因为你说，我需要你。
三年前，你说我很自私，总是把事情往自己赛，所以我需要你。
三年前，你说我总是不让自己的心事告诉你，所以我需要你。
三年后，你重复着，重复着，重复着。。。

好！既然如此，我承认，我很像蝴蝶。
我承认，我看起来，很弱小。
我承认，我很自私，很爱孤立自己。
我承认，我很多事情不曾跟你报告，每一样事情打算自己处理。

但我绝不承认，我曾经很脆弱，像蝴蝶一样。
但我绝不承认，我曾经很自私，因为我总是把我的心事与朋友分享。
但我绝不承认，我曾经有很多事情跟你报告，因为你总是在我身边监视着我。

所以，
我们来做个了解吧，我不要再做你的蝴蝶了。
我们做个了解吧，我已经不属于你了，离开我，好吗？
我们做个了解吧，不想再知道你生活的细节。
我们做个了解吧，别再知道我生活的细节。
我们做个了解吧，我的感觉不会成为你的。
我们做个了解吧，不要在勉强我进入你的世界。

蝴蝶，是要飞翔的，才会美丽，不是吗？
所以，让我飞翔，好吗？
我真得很累，很累了，我不想再伪装成你喜欢俄蝴蝶了。
让我再问你一次，放过我，放了我，好吗？

擦肩而过（改版）

我不会是个好女人
也不会是个好情人
我对你说
我们只是擦肩而过
好的女人有那么多
少了我的日子也能过
我一定会让你寂寞
也一定会让你难过
你听我说
未来的日子好好过
不管未来有多少错
至少还有体亿问候
他的温柔陪你度过

你要的不是我

怎么能忘
时间多长？
你快乐吗？
想代替你回答
你知道吗？
走了好远我才能去面对
这份牵挂
是不想飞
你要的不是我
心碎的失去轮廓
曾经给你的感动
只是情绪的波动
能给的不是我
放任你走你自由
天使不留我的笨拙
就连说话都别颤抖
我被遗忘在你遗忘的角落


这是林俊杰的《你要的不是我》

What is the meaning of love...

Love...
Is it just a spelling of L.O.V.E?
Loud, only, value, emo?
What is it?
Maybe no word can explain it…
Hate, hurt, sadness, unsecured, mistrust, substitution, loyalty, faithfulness, obsess, stress, pressure, alienated, heartbroken, and many more…
But the feeling that is kept inside will one day boiled out
What is the only solution?
Breaking up, fighting, or avoiding each other?
Till the point it reaches, no one will know the answer.
But I’ve made my wise decision, it’s better it ends before somebody get hurts.
The person that is giving me all those feeling is still bothering me.
I still love him, but not willing to accept the feeling with sadness.

I'm sorry...

I've knew it since we met
The unsecureness in you
I knew you've hurt before
That's why you trust no one
You've always be alone
Planting thornes around you
Let no one in
So that you can't get hurt again
I thought I have the ability to change you
But I was too naive
I've never thought about what will happen
I've hurt you so
I know that I don't deserved your apologies
But you've forgive me so
You've gave me chances
You've always been beside me
Hoping I would find you
You've once said you've shut your heart
The reason was me
But do you realised that a girl had opened it for you
She was the pure angel that you've long seek
But she can't be with you forever as I do
She has to follow her dreams
So you let her go
That's why you came for me
Coz I'll comfort you
As who you wanted me to be
I told myself to let you go
Coz I can't forever be with you
I can't see myself in your eyes
I'm just a substitude that can reduce the bitterness of remembering her
You seek security from me
Asking me reasons by and by
Make me can't face you anymore
I've lost all the faith and trust no one
The answers I've longed you to give
You've gave it to her
That's why I wanna said good bye
You won't let me to
You've ask for a second chance as you did give me before
I'm hurt as you too
You've hurt me twice
Do you know that I'm not just hurting you three years ago
I was heartbroken too
Coz I knew I wasn't the girl you wanted
From the past till now and for the future
The same thing happened now again
You've said I've tortured you
You've tortured me as well
I can't stand it anymore
That's why I wanted to break free from you
I know I've changed
But the same thing I wanna repeat again
That I wanna tell you
I'm sorry
I'm not the girl you want
I wish you all the best
You can have my courage
Just go and be with her
Tell her the truth
Don't let her go again
At last
All can say that
I'm sorry

Unsecure...

I know that it's not your fault
And not mine either
How can I forget
The moments we've been through
How are you now? Still smiling as usual?
It makes me want to answer it for you
Do you know?
As time past, and the distance I've been through
Now I can face the bitterness in the memories
And the unsecure you've always have
That makes me wonder "Why?"
Coz...
What you want is not from me
That makes me can't face you anymore
The sweet memories that I gave
Makes me felt that they were caused by coincidence
Who can gave what you want is not me
So I guess I'll just set you free
Even the time we've been will hurt me
I can't been as usual
I can't face you as before
Just let me been in your deepest memories